It’s his little blue and white striped blanket that breaks my heart. Every time I see her fold it, adjust it, and gently lay it upon her pillow, I crumble inside. Every excruciating memory comes rushing back, each time she presses her face against its soft fibers; or clenches it in her hands, with a… Continue reading The Overlooked Father (Guest Post)
Over the weekend, I traveled out of town to visit my parents. My mom did some of her Christmas shopping and wanted to show me what she had gotten. She hand-picked items for each of her seven living grandchildren: warm beanies and silly toys for the boys, and some fluffy socks for the girls. And… Continue reading A Life of Nevers
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. This month, we remember and recognize all of the precious babies gone too soon. At the beginning of the month, I began taking name submissions for a project to honor as many of these beautiful babies as possible. The response was overwhelming. I filled up a large… Continue reading Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month
The day that I held Lincoln in my arms, I slowly and painfully, got up and went into the hospital bathroom to clean up a little bit. I had been on IV fluids for roughly 32 hours and, between labor and the trauma of losing my son, I had not slept soundly in over 55 hours. I… Continue reading Just Have a Day
I know how you feel. It’s a dangerous term. It’s a hurtful term. It opens the floodgates to comparing our grief. Like we have a balance scale out to see which pain is heavier. Maybe we compare by the gestational age of our babies. Maybe we compare by the cause of death. Maybe by how… Continue reading It’s Okay
Missing Link & Liam 